Every single year I will write a summary of my life for the year.
This year was very random I could say.
Started my college..
It was tiring because I was working and studying..
Earn not much as a teacher..
Got my first girlfriend on April..
Broke up on May..
I can say to myself that I'm stupid..
But life moves on..
Thank God that I didn't do anything stupid but that time I was in pain..
I continue with my studies and all..
I was sleepless on that period of time..
Started my night life..
It was restless la but it was fun..
Know a few new friends..
It was something that could take things off my mind..
But it didn't last..
All of my good friends went back to London or U.S.
I'm so going to kill them when they are back..
Then I got another job at Menara Maxis..
It was tiring and hectic..
I could sleep soundly without any problem because I'm always tired..
My earning is kinda average..
I could support myself..
That is the good news la..
I think this is only a temporary job for me..
I got to know a lot of new friends at work..
Just yesterday went Christmas eve dinner with Kak Sophie..
Thanks thanks ^.^v
Learn a lot in the work place..
Learn a lot about Maxis(Dark Secret)..
Met a lot of higher class people..
2011 is coming up..
I'm not sure what is coming but I know that is going to be better than 2010..
I pray that life is going to be better every single day..
In conclusion, I have grow a lot mature since the break up. I have become cold hearted. Still faithful to my best friends. Still helpful and mindful. As well as understanding one another. Think like an adult. I'm going to walk a path of Victory!
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Jason Chong
Hey reader. I'm so sorry for not posting since September. I'm very busy lately. I'm working at Maxis KLCC. Can say a full time job and is pretty stressful. I work for 5 days straight and study for the other 2 days in the week. I have no off/rest days. My eyes is always heavy. I'm always tired. Even I earn like a manager, I'm not happy and feel stress every single day. Life wasn't easy for me. As a single child in the family and raise by my mom alone. I thank God that He is always looking after me. I got my few best friends that always have my back(Lately they have been hiding).
Today was suppose to go out(planned 3 weeks in advance). But in the end, didn't go at all. I stay at home and sleep. I'm just so sick and tired of all this. I just want a day that I could enjoy. Is that so hard to ask? Tat is why I'm so sick and tired. But is okay. Who wants it? My emotional is getting heavy and heavy until is killing my patiences. Is common when you are very tired. Yesterday Laureen ask me this: Are you happy Jason? I answer and say I'm not happy even I have a manager earning every month. It is because I don't get to spend quality time with you guys or my mom.
Now I learn how to say No! to people. No more night club for me. One funny story is I know the CEO of Maison club. I met him at Maxis KLCC. He is very cool guy indeed.
Yesterday the whole night was talking to my brother's Alvin about DSLR. He give me a lot of ideas and all. I was looking at Nikon D90 or Canon 60D then he change my mind to Canon 550D or Nikon D7000. He say of course go for Nikon D7000. All those nikon fans. Craziness! But is super awesome for a beginner like myself to get a Mid-Level DSLR. I can learn very fast because I love photography. This is going to cost me a lot. This hobby is a very expensive hobby. One thing I know I could borrow gears from my fellow Nikon craziness people.
Thank God for open doors la. I met a lot of CEO,Datuk and etc. The one I know is all friendly people. Those will be my contact in the future. I'm not afraid of lacking job in the future. Those are my keys to a great and fruitful future. I know currently is tough and all. I believe that God will make my life a lot easier in the future.
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Jason
Her bday is 5 days after mine. Few days back she called me for yam cha only. Before a day,call me to go club-ing. I'm like okay. Went to the family bbq party at her house. Talk and watch TV. It was nice la.
Get to hang out with the whole family. Ashley and I was planning to leave at 10pm. We went to drop my mom home and then straight to Mist at Bangsar.
Met a few of her friends that is Bryan. He is quite cool and friendly guy. Everyone say we look the same because our moms are sisters. Went in and we get the VIP seats. I don't get to drink that night. Only a bit. >.<" I find it okay la.
Both of us talk and all. I find myself a bit bored la. It is because on the table is nearly all guys. And everyone know I mix well with my opposite gender that is the girls. Since is her bday I shall make myself happy.
She went down to dance and all. I'm there drinking a few glass while watching them dance on the stage downstairs. Here is some picture I grab from Facebook:
Ashley and her girlfriends.. =)
Part 2 =)
Dance stage (Strictly girls only)..
My cousin and a girl on the stage =)
This is the time for her to show her stuff. *Crazy time*
When she was dancing with her junior upstairs, I was her dancing partner. Went down again. I follow her down and just checking her out dancing. For everyone info, there is a lot of pervert at club. So I just keep an eye for a while la. It was super hot down there.
And then finally she got tired and went back up. Sitting down and talk. Both of us are tired. Stay for a while until the club close. Everyone is blur and drank other than both of us cousins.
Went out and met Nim. Nim is the guy I remember in Maison with Jo ey. We all decide to go Mamak nearby to chill and eat. Fetch Ashley home and then went back home. Happy Birthday Ashley and have a great one =)
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Jason
Get to hang out with the whole family. Ashley and I was planning to leave at 10pm. We went to drop my mom home and then straight to Mist at Bangsar.
Met a few of her friends that is Bryan. He is quite cool and friendly guy. Everyone say we look the same because our moms are sisters. Went in and we get the VIP seats. I don't get to drink that night. Only a bit. >.<" I find it okay la.
Both of us talk and all. I find myself a bit bored la. It is because on the table is nearly all guys. And everyone know I mix well with my opposite gender that is the girls. Since is her bday I shall make myself happy.
She went down to dance and all. I'm there drinking a few glass while watching them dance on the stage downstairs. Here is some picture I grab from Facebook:
Ashley and her girlfriends.. =)
Part 2 =)
Dance stage (Strictly girls only)..
My cousin and a girl on the stage =)
This is the time for her to show her stuff. *Crazy time*
When she was dancing with her junior upstairs, I was her dancing partner. Went down again. I follow her down and just checking her out dancing. For everyone info, there is a lot of pervert at club. So I just keep an eye for a while la. It was super hot down there.
And then finally she got tired and went back up. Sitting down and talk. Both of us are tired. Stay for a while until the club close. Everyone is blur and drank other than both of us cousins.
Went out and met Nim. Nim is the guy I remember in Maison with Jo ey. We all decide to go Mamak nearby to chill and eat. Fetch Ashley home and then went back home. Happy Birthday Ashley and have a great one =)
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Jason
Let's start on the 4nd of September. Went dinner and movies with my mom,Kris and his mom at Midvalley. We watched Cats and Dogs 2 in 3D. It was nice la. Finish the movie and then fetch my mom home.
Kris is still at Midvalley waiting for his friends. I went there to look for him and they wanted to watch a movie. I'm okay with anything. So we end up watching another movie. Is a 11:30pm movie. It was Going The Distance. It was an awesome movie indeed. I was amaze that they have this in Malaysia.
In between the movie there is a lot of sms coming to my phone. The really nice one was from Hooi ping(Ji mui from Penang) You guys must wonder why she treat me like Ji mui. I better not answer that and I'm not gay.
Back to the story. Finish the movie and we went to Bangsar and none of the Bar was open. Then we went straight to Changkat to meet up with my cousin(Ashley) and Vinod.
I went looking for Ashley and found her sitting with 2 of her friends. Went there and say hi. They are really nice and treat me drinks. Treated my friends as well. Matt called me to shotgun a bottle of beer. I give face to both side and since is my birthday. I shotgun the whole bottle of beer. It was nothing to me.
Then I still drink the glass of wine and another bottle of beer. They were nice enough to treat Monisha a shot. *LoLx* They wanted to go to The palace PJ. In end they can't even go.
Vinod came down finally. I was like hey man. You so owe-ing me a drink and you too Kris. Then we went straight Petaling Street. We went there with Kris,Monisha and Natasha. Vinod went with his family. The rest are there waiting for us that is Marcus and Johan.
We went there for mamak. Nothing more =). Mamak for a while and then go back home. First,needed to fetch the girls back to Hartamas. And I went back home and sleep. Look at the clock is 6am in the morning. *Geng*
Woke up at 9am and went straight to church. Look half dead. Few of youth wish me and Laureen brought me a mini cake. Went lunch with N&N(Natasha Yap & Nicole Yap) at Midvalley. Send them home and then go back to church to wait for Laureen.
I was waiting for a moment and then heard the uncle say is going to end at 4pm. I was like okay. I'm going home. I went to Kris place to pick up my stuff and all. Went straight home and rest. Then dinner with my uncle and mom. It was a tiring but nice 19th birthday. Thanks everyone for the wish =)
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Jason Chong
Due I got class from morning until 7:30pm. I fetch Deidre and her family back to Puchong and then straight to Kristian's House. I had dinner with him and his mom. Nice dinner indeed. Went back home and bath and get ready to go out. They say they are going to Changkat. I seriously don't know where is it. >.<" Was waiting for Vinod and Hanif opposite Quatto. Since we are bored. Kris took a picture of me:
Speechless shot. >.<"
Thao,Tina and Amy.
Then we get a call from Hanif saying that we lock car key in the car. *Nothing good to say* Then I go fetch them. We went to Changkat. We go in a bar and order some beer and as for the girls,they always get free drinks. Take some random shots while we are talking:
Speechless shot. >.<"Thao,Tina and Amy.Vimal,Vinod and Clarrisa. ^.^
We talk and all. Hanif and I were like super boring. Because I'm half dead. I feel like sleeping. We finish the beer. Is only 1am. The girl walk off to get free drinks. Then we all leave. Kris and I were piss off. We send them back to the car. And we head home. I reach Kris place and we talked for quite sometime. Then Hanif came and pick Kristian up. They are a bit crazy. And I went back home and sleep. >.<" I'm like super tired and I'm sorry. Hope you understand.
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Don't have the pictures due to Stephy didn't upload it so end up taking Thao's one. It was a random day la.
I wasn't prepare to go out. Wondering who is going out and all. Called Kris like thousand times and didn't pick up at all. Vinod and Johan was piss off where are they going.
Around 10pm, only know they are going to Neutral. Is a 3D Bar or Club. Just in-front of Beach Club. But first, I need to fetch Kris from Damasara. I told him, you are so going to pay for my petrol. He is like okay. *Lolx* Went there fetch both Kris and Amy to Neutral. Meet up with the guys. And Neutral bar is not happening. Is boring and lousy. Then Thao try to get us in Zouk.
Zouk is the strictest club in KL. Johan keep on saying there is no way we can enter Zouk. Then I say why not we go Maison. Kris say is also pack. And full of Lala people. We waited lo. Then Thao say we can go to Zouk. I drive Kris,Stephy,Amy and Maegam to Zouk. As for the rest, they walk. *Wahahahahaha*
We just walk in and all. The place was super pack. The guys pay rm55 each for the share of bottles. There is 7-8 bottle of Black Label on the table. We dance and drink. I take quite a lot of pictures but I don't have it. Kris and I was super depress and keep on drinking. One girl came and approach me and say 'Come I drink with you'. I say 'No thanks'. I'm helping my friends to take pictures:
Johan and Vimal posting. Nicely done guys ^.^
Never forgot the nice couple. Kris and Stephy. Just lovely ^_^v
Random shot on Laura and Maegam. They can dance I tell you that.
Laura why you run away from me? No! You are cute in the pictures. *LoLx* Stephy always post for me. Thank you ^.^
Two of my old and best friends posting.
Do I need to name them all? I lazy la. Just crazy girl is good enough. =)
I wonder why you close your eyes Kris. >.<"
I have a lot of fun but I miss someone that night. Then the club close. Both Kris and I barely can walk straight. We walk to toilet and talk shit. We walk out and talk more shit. Then he went sitting down and I start talking to Stephy. Calling her to take care and don't go kill herself in US. I was half drunk that night. I drove Stephy back to Cheras. And I drove everyone back to Damasara. I find myself super pro that night. Went in Thao place and straightaway sleep at the Sofa. Maegam and Natasha woke me up like few times. I was like 'Can a boy get some sleep? My head is killing me* There goes another Ladies night. Goodbye Stephy =)
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Jason
I attend college and found out that Ms Jaime is still on leave. I went there for nothing. Only sign attendance. *Sweat* Went home and online.
Afternoon time, Stephy talk to me in MSN asking me whether wanted to go to Sungai Wang for Karaoke. I'm fine with it and asked whether Hanna could join. She say ya ya ya.. *Lolx* Since that day, my mom is a bit sick. Waited my mom to wake up and then fetch her to work. And then drive to subang to fetch Hanna. Pretty hard to find Hanna place. Then we straightaway to Time Square. Take smart tunnel. We walk to Greenbox and met Amy. We talk while waiting for the rest. Finally they came and Thao order a room. I met someone I never met before that is Maegam and Mellisa Th'ng. I was like hi and bye. I wasn't in the mood that day. We went in. After a while, Kris,Vinod and I went out to get a beer. Sitting somewhere and having beer. Talking and all. Suddenly Stephy and Tina surprise us. >.<" We went back in and start singing and taking pictures:
Random shot from someone I forgotten. >.<"
Amy,Hanna and Stephy. Amy why you always do this to me? Next time I'm going to buy a tape and tape your eyes.
Stephy,are you trying to become a pig? No wonder Tina is laughing. *Haha*
Maegam,Mellisa and Thao. ^.^
Hanna and Stephy acting Cute. I know I know la. No need to act la =)
Kris,Mellisa and Myself. Credit to Maegam I think =)
Group picture.. Someone seriously can post. >.<"
After singing hour,Johan and Maegam still can pose for pictures. Magnum this look is better than orginal. Improvement =)
Sing until 8:30pm. Went for Late Dinner at Pavillion. 
Nice pose guys. After dinner shots. ^.^
Wow there was a lot of drama happening that day. Make me really stress. After dinner, fetch Hanna home and then take the rest to Damasara for a short drink. I got lost there 4-5 times. I was like really piss off. Johan and I is like why can't they choose KL or something. >.<" Mamak for a while. And then we head home. It was one heck of a crazy night. And some more afternoon got class. *Crazy* Reach home like 4am in the morning. >.<"
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Jason
Sorry guys for not updating. I was really busy with appointment and meeting nowadays.
Joel came and we went out for dinner. Vince invite us for dinner with his dad. And I was shy to eat. So I eat a little only. Called Kris and he told me that he going to come back to his old place and we can go together. I was like okay! No Amway meeting for me tonight. *xD*
Resting at home until 11pm. Went to pick up Kris and we head to Minister of Sound. Went there the first person we meet was Irving. Really nice and funny guy. We talk and laugh about things I forgotten. Then we meet Stephy and the rest. She is really hyperactive girl. As well as open minded and nice girl.
While 3 of us guys were waiting. A random girl come and approach me and ask for my ID. I was like oh okay and here is my ID. Ya I know I look the youngest among all 3 guys. *Haiz* We enter and wish the bday girl 'Happy Birthday'. I saw a lot of girls around. I saw a lot of groups of girl staring at us. I think it would be Kristian and Irving. Both of them are tall and charming. As for me, I'm just the Korean Boy face.*Smile* Ya I nearly forgot. There is Aaron too. He came quite late. Here is the picture of all 4 of us:
I was helping the girls to take pictures. Some really shy to face the camera. I took all the nice and memorable pictures. Stephy took some pictures with me.
Then I keep on drinking and drinking. I pour quite a lot to my drink I think. The girls was on the dance floor dancing. I was there taking random pictures. Here is some of my good shoots:
Early in the afternoon,Kris invite me to a party at Minister of Sound in Facebook. I say alright. I get back to you man. Went for high tea with Drake and talk about the good old days. Went back home and prepare my clothes and style my hair.
Joel came and we went out for dinner. Vince invite us for dinner with his dad. And I was shy to eat. So I eat a little only. Called Kris and he told me that he going to come back to his old place and we can go together. I was like okay! No Amway meeting for me tonight. *xD*
While 3 of us guys were waiting. A random girl come and approach me and ask for my ID. I was like oh okay and here is my ID. Ya I know I look the youngest among all 3 guys. *Haiz* We enter and wish the bday girl 'Happy Birthday'. I saw a lot of girls around. I saw a lot of groups of girl staring at us. I think it would be Kristian and Irving. Both of them are tall and charming. As for me, I'm just the Korean Boy face.*Smile* Ya I nearly forgot. There is Aaron too. He came quite late. Here is the picture of all 4 of us:
This picture I took with Stephy make me feel short >.<"
A picture with Kris:
And then I took some pictures with Stephy and Hanna:
And then I took some pictures with Stephy and Hanna:
Then rest for a while after taking a ton of pictures. Chit chatting with Hanna and took a picture with her:
She is really nice,sweet and friendly girl. As well as a good dancer. I get to dance with her. *P.S. Jason don't know how to dance* Sorry ya. She need to leave early. So I send her out of the club. Went back in and meet up with them. We leave the club. Kris and Irving went to 7-11 to buy Smoke and Stephy,Emai and Me went to KFC to buy food.
Irving ask me whether I could drive or not. I say why not? I can see clearly and walk straight. Then I drive them home to 1-Utama. Stay over at Thao place. Chit chat and all. Kris and Irving went to Mamak at 5 in the morning and I stay at home resting my eyes. They came back at 6 and I still couldn't sleep. Not use to sleeping on sofa ma.
Wake up at 9 something and sleep back. Then Irving wake up at 10 30am and wanted to go home. I send him home at Jalan Ipoh and then I head home. That was one hack of a great night. Let's do it again some other time. ^_^
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Jason
Hey people. Guys do me a favor and leave some comment in my cbox. My cbox look dead.
The reason why I put the title 'Hello' is it reminds me of something in the past. I had a dream about my past and I change it because what is the outcome. I wish I can go back to the past and change it. Yes I did a lot of foolish things in the past. I'm sorry for that.
I believe there is always 2nd chance for everyone. God have forgive my sins. Because of that, I forgive others that sin against me.
Since now is my holiday. I get to chill and relax more. Last time my busyness stop me thinking about the past. I do have dreams and it will somehow kills me when I wake up. I will feel really down for some reason. Even I'm having holidays, my black eye is still there.
I still remember when I ask her for a second chance. And she say 'no'. That time I was really piss off because I didn't do anything wrong like going out with other girl,cheating on her,or etc. To my reader question: Yes I do miss her a lot until I nearly die on the first night we break up. My head was killing me on that time. A lot of people say is not worthy. My mother say she is so not worth of your tears. All my aunties called me and ask how am I doing. I feel really terrible and down. They encourage me a lot. All my best friends came out like Vincent Phang. I truly appreciate your advice and care. That month itself, I have to take cough medicine to make myself fall asleep. That is how much I miss her. Stupid and blind right? Yes I'm stupid and blind once but not anymore. I learn from mistakes and improve myself.
I got so many things to write but is time to stop and continue on another day. See ya..
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Jason Chong
Hello Everyone.Wonder why I put that as a topic.It is because I'm going to talk about it.Happiness and Depression will always have in our life.Each and everyone of us.Is really common emotion in Life.One is really good to have and one is really bad to have.
Everyone say Happiness is hard to get in life.And it is the best medicine in Life.As for my opinion,Love is the best medicine and not happiness.Happiness can be a fake up by anyone.I remember on Laureen Birthday,I put up a really happy act in front of everyone.Is my sister birthday after all.I want her to be happy so I don't want her to be worrying about me.I just broke up a few days before her birthday so I'm still in really bad and emotional mood. So I put up a really strong act on that day. True happiness is hard to find. Temporary happiness is easy. My happiness come from friends and family. Because they are important to me and I care about them. Happiness can't be found in theme park when you are playing all alone there. Get my point there?
What about Depression?
As I study,Depression is a sickness. Don't know why? You could ask a doctor. Deep and Strong Depression need a profession and psychologist for help. If not, the effect can be permanent. This is the one that no one want. People trends to cover the depression by pain or pleasure. That is why you can see a lot of people killing themselves and consuming alcohol and taking drugs. They want to forget those depression in them that cause so much pain inside of them. Too much depression can cause a person to go crazy. The brain can take this much but once is over the human limits. It can cause chaos. As I read,there is a killer who his wife left him because he have the habit of controlling person things. Once his wife left him, his mental can't handle it and start killing the people who are close to her. In the end, it kill her as well. The story teach us a lot of value. Never take things too serious. Never take a relationship too serious until is steady and planned to get marry to each other. Because you will never know when you will get stab into your heart.
There is so much to write but I rather keep something to myself. As I regret doing and teaching things I'm not proud of in the past. We are human and we do mistakes in life. See you soon. I will continue writing in the future.
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Not to say I'm master in this topic.It is because I came from a broken family and have no brother or sister.I read a lot of parenting and relationship books.
Family is really important to everyone.Sometimes we kids don't value it much because we always see them around.Imagine they are no longer around.It will be a nightmare for you.When you grow up with parents always argue and fight,have no love from parents(work,break up,and etc),the boy(that's me) will always suffer loneliness and heartache. Value your parents when you have them. Value your brother and sister if you have them. They are Family. I wish I have one but unluckily I don't have. I have a dream to have a big and nice family of my own.
Wanted to thank my good brother's Benjamin for bring back me from the darkness. If he wasn't there, I might be doing things I'm not proud of today. I can imagine how dark I can become.
Relationship is a part of life. So I'm talking about Boy/Girl Relationship. Is really wide and interesting topic to talk about. First advice from me, make it clean and pure. Trust one another because you love one another. I read a lot of Christian Relationship books. It talk about a lot of things. From Trusting God to Walking together with God. The books talk wisdom in relationship. As my Pastor say it bound to have a lot of problem if your relationship is base on feelings. Yes I read a lot of psychology books as well and feelings do change quite often.
Let's take my story as an example: Chermaine and I know only for 2 weeks and start dating already. Shock right? It shock myself and I fall sick on the first week we dated. We keep on contact with each other. A lot happiness in the beginning. Is a truly unforgettable experience. I don't care about her past or mistake that she did. Everyone bound to do mistake in life and no one is perfect. One of my happiness moment with her was walking in the park holding hands and taking pictures. Both of us base on this relationship on feelings. Trouble comes after that day. Both of us suffer a lot of stress. And end up breaking up. Who am I to judge her on this? Yes I do suffer a lot of heartache, headache, depression and more. So the story say that feelings can change just like the wind.
That's why so many relationship fail in this world. I don't think is true that guys is born flower hearted. I know I'm not. You can see yourself. I don't want to explain. I know a lot of my brothers is not too.
I know a lot of boys who are handsome become gay and I know a lot of girls who are cute/pretty become les because of bad relationship. Broke Family is also come from bad relationship. I feel really sorry for them. Is also one of the reason why I study psychology.
Choose with wisdom. Never look back. Always support one another. Trusting one each other. Always have a goal and dreams. Love your partner no matter what happen. It will always have good and bad time. Never give up in trouble times. See ya..
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Hey Guys.I'm back to write long post and meaningful one.I been writing quite a lot of negative story and post.Am going to write one really interesting and life changing one.
What is Leadership to me?
There is a lot of meaning in this word. Attitude will be the most important key in Leadership.
What create a good attitude?
A good and healthy habit. Habit will turn out to be our lifestyle. To be a good leader. He/She must have a good and healthy lifestyle. Love things that you have in Life. That's what God have provide for you now. God must have your Trust before He gave you the nations. And Trust is not easy to earn. You must be trustworthy to be a great leader.
Where does trust come from?
It come from oneself. Trust is not easy to earn back or to be earn. Once lost, it will take a really long time to get back.
Ethics is also important in Life. Who would follow a person who have no ethics in life? Each great and famous company got one simple thing call The Code of Ethics. Follow it and you will never go wrong.
If you want to ask me a question if our emotions come in our way.
Is okay to be emotional. We are only human. There is always things happen in our life. The strongest can fall too. Keep your faith together and keep on moving. Don't stay where you are now. Life is unfair sometimes but we have no choice but to live it right? So live it with a smile at your face. Everything will be just fine at the end.
I'm a boy who have big dreams. I fail a thousands times and I still moving on. There is always failure in Life. The person who give up is the real failure. Keep on moving and You will be successful in Life. The most important dream in life and out stand all the rest is have a Big and Happy Family(Complete Family). The reason why I'm sad and depress for so long since the day because is like my no.1 dream have be crush. So I need time to repair and stand up. I'm only human.
I got dreams to save nations. To help the poor and save the sick. People are dying everyday and Rich people are getting richer. If everyone think the same like me, the resources that we have is more than enough for every single person in this world. I need millions and billions to do that. I will work hard and smart to get to that level. I will be the one who hold billions and say I'm not like you so selfish and have everything to yourself. Sharing is Caring. I believe that God will provide for me. The wealth, wisdom, strength, knowledge, ability, talent, people, love and more.
Dare to dream Big Dream. God won't help people who don't dare to move. Example: You don't climb the mountain, how would you reach to the top? Is the same meaning. You have to move and face challenge in life. I had my most stressful one last few months that seriously bring me down to the floor. I'm on my feet and walking towards my future.
Will continue with more after I get some good rest and sleep. Wisdom is unlimited. It will keep on coming. One more word: We are unique in our way. We are best in our field. We have great Talent from God. God give us 2 choice. Use it or Leave it? Your choice is always your choice. Remember we are not an accident. We are here for a purpose. You are reading this for a purpose as well. There is no accident in life. Create your own future! A brighter and greater future. See ya..
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JC (Jason Chong)
Really tired for the past few weeks..
My face always darker than black when exam come..
As I hate exam..
Tomorrow is my final paper tat is College Algebra with Application..
After tomorrow is my Sem break..
I can go do things that I truly enjoy..
To do list for next month:
*Hit my sales target..
*Exercise and eat more..
*Go out and meet people..
*Hang out with friends..
*Relax..
*Write more..
*Have fun..
I been having high level stress since the day..
My black eye is getting thicker each and everyday..
Soon I will need make up to cover it..
LoLx..
My head is quite blank now..
So I will write some other day..
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Jason
Now I ask myself..
Have I turn cold??..
Heartless??..
Painless??..
Some close to me will only know my past..
How many time I got stab straight into my heart??..
The pain is too much to handle for a normal boy..
I prefer the pain on the outside than the inside..
How many scar I had in my body??..
Is quite a lot even my chest got like a knife slash scar..
I have grow up with quite a lot of bitterness..
Because I can still feel the scars I have in my heart..
As I accept Christ,God have show me love and guide me..
I slowly grow from bitterness boy to a person that love others..
I starting to help others..
Learn from leaders..
Study harder..
Be a better person..
As I know a lot of friends who seriously suffer in relationship..
And news show a lot of things to me about this topic..
I find it really interesting and really want to help those kind of people..
If my mom and dad relationship is good,my life wouldn't be like this..
So is like my passion in life to research and study about this topic..
I have read a lot of relationship books..
Mostly related to God..
I have some wisdom from books and people about relationship..
I have train myself to be quite a self control person..
A lot better than last time..
My 1st girlfriend happen this year April..
To tell you the truth..
I'm really happy to have someone to love and trust me..
I value her really highly..
And put my extra time on her..
As I know her past..
I feel really sorry for her and want to heal her heart with my time and love..
That's why I put a lot of afford on her..
I dream to have a great family in the future with her..
I plan a lot of things because she is my 1st gf..
Problem arise in our shoes..
Both of us suffer a lot of stress..
I can't blame her for giving up on me..
She break up with me..
I feel really terrible..
Really emotional..
I can't control my thinking,attitude and behavior..
I did and say a lot of stupid stuff..
I feel sorry and depress over this..
After a month,college had started..
I have already forgive and forget her..
But my emotion is still unstable..
A lot of things I don't want to say and a lot of things I don't want to remember..
This has cause another scar in my heart..
As now is the beginning of July..
I'm quite in control of myself..
But I can't feel any happiness around me anymore..
Now what I'm chasing is my own Happiness..
I will continue chasing my Dreams..
Will not let this incident effect my whole life..
I will take this incident as a life experience..
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Jason Chong
Once you get hurt,you will have a scar..
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The scar will always remind you not to try it again because you don't want to hurt again..
The boy will become a player,gay,insecure,lifeless,depression,mental affected or more..
The girl will become a player,lesbian,insecure,lifeless,depression,mental affected or more..
Worse come to worse,they will become psycho..
Not only that,they might kill themselves because the pain they have is too much to handle..
The lucky one will take quite a time to become normal again or they will stay like that until the end of time..
^_^
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Jason
Continue reading if you want to know why I write this title!!
I'm resting and watching a TVB show!!
Is really must watch show!!
This show reminds me a lot of things..
Remind me a lot of sad and unhappy thing if you know what I mean..
This show call The Mysteries of Love..
This is the 2 scene that both of them break up..
I lazy to explain each and every single detail about the story..
Have to watch the show to know the story la..
My love story and their love story are quite similar..
Have the same love and same problem..
You must watch from the beginning until the end..
I love the ending part..
^_^
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Jason Chong
Sorry guys for not updating..
Almost 2 months since we break up already..
I had a really tough time last month..
Had a really major depression because of the break up..
I can't sleep and eat..
Drop a lot of hair..
Really emotional..
Can't listen to some songs..
I forgotten how many time I cry(Like the rain from the sky)..
I'm not afraid to cry because even our Lord and Saviour's Jesus Christ cried..
I hate to cry in front of people so I struggle a lot since the break up..
Even my favorite show,I don't dare to watch..
A lot of places brings me only more depression..
So I choose to stay at home..
I choose to keep it to myself and act like nothing have happen..
Just to make my friends and family happy..
Now currently normal la..
I forgotten a lot of things..
I choose to move on..
I know God will send me the one that fit me best..
Past will always be the past!!
I will take it as an experience..
^_^
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Jason
Sorry guys for not updating..
Was really busy and like nothing to write about..
Was really busy and like nothing to write about..
Since now my Girlfriend is not online,I blog for a while..
On April fool,went outing with Mainey and Elaine..
We went to Sunway..
I have fun shopping with those girls..
Then ice-skate..Elaine quite pro for first timer..Fall down only once..
Then went back..Send Elaine home..And went yam cha with Mainey..
From Hometown to Mamak..
On the day itself,I only fool Laureen..*Hehehe*
Next day came,I stay at home alone talking to Maniey in MSN..
On the night itself,we became couple..
I feel really happy about it..
We help and look out for each other..
Sometimes we hang out and so la..
Finish my assignment ASAP just to spend some time with her..
I think a lot of things for our future..
Have Goals for this relationship..
After that week,I felt sick for days..
High fever for a week I think..
After that week,I felt sick for days..
High fever for a week I think..
I'm fine after that..
Do a bit revision and more la..
Last sunday,went to KLCC for PC Fair with Mainey(Dear)..
I really enjoy that day..
But the time pass really fast.. >_<"
This week is my revision week..
So don't get to see her until I finish my finals..
*Jason is sob-ing at the corner*
Today is our 3rd week Anniversary..
I wanted to say..
I Love You,Chermaine Low Hui Ting..
*Jason will never leave Maniey**Smile*
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Jason
